Lonely. Oh So Lonely :( -- except, not.

There's this song by Akon called Lonely -- a total revival of an earlier song, but c'mon, legitimate artists are hard to come by this day and age right.

(8) Lonely ... I'm so lonely ...
I have nobody
For my own ...
O-Ohhhh, I'm so lonely ...
Oh so lonley ...
I have nobody to call my own ... (8)

And yeah. So PA is back in my life/back in the city!! For the time being anyways. She's got to go back in June me thinks -- cuz she's LAME and has to do summer courses. Whatever, she's a smart cookie -- maybe wasting four months here doing nothing is not all it's cracked up to be.

Anyways, I went over to her place today and we had our heart-to-heart/gossip/being-girls time. And it was deeeelightful! It feels amazing having her here! ESPESH cuz P and A are now, officially, MIA from my life for the rest of the month. P's in Pinas and A's going under the knife tomorrow. I'm so proud of her, she's been through so much and never really complains about it.
Well, okay, obvi there are times when we're both, "wtf" about the whole sitch, but there's nothing she ever wishes on anyone that she would feel really bad for. Cuz she's a good girly.

P's in the motherland and I'm tres JEAL! I'm also the one who was realllly, extremely excited for her mind you lol. I mean, even when I got the txt from her saying that she had landed and that it was humid there -- it was SURREAL! I kept thinking, omga, she's on the other side of the FREAKING WORLD!

ANYwhoozles, today was catch-up-on-8-months-of-news with PA. We talked about the O situation and how she has turned into a downright psychopath lol. Some weird force has taken over her body and she is now acting like everything she has ever stood against back in high school. Not taking "love" seriously and treating it with such disregard, and talking major shit behind her supposed best friend's back. Why I Oughtta! We talked about how we wanted relationships and to have that special someone in our lives. Hopefully our prince charming's can focus their eyes on the road to getting to us a little better cuz it's taken a good 18 years now and I'm getting a tad antsy, you hear me?

You know, I figure no matter how "lonely" I am, I'm always going to have my friends and family with me and I spend basically all my time with them anyway so it'll be hard to have time for anyone else?

(Totally say things like that to myself, so as to ease the pain that is my lame lonliness LOL).

*Woa, I just scratched my eye and had a mini-daydream where I saw the face of my dreamboy. OMGA he was beatiful!*

There's also the matter of Anj. What a little jerk eh, telling G and J -- the two girls I really cannot grow to enjoy the company of (seeing as they are both former best friends of mine! *woa*), that him and I did the deed. Puh-fucking-lease Anj, you know that I wouldn't do it and even IF it came close last time, that means jack shit at the momento. Asswipe. So full of it.

Why does he keep acting like such a jerk, I mean, I'm supposed to be his friend. He told me that things between me and him and other girls and him is that him and I have this history. We were friends in the 4th grade you know. He's treating me like shit; like I'm one of his friggin broads and HECK no I'm not. I didn't even like him before, when I was back in high school eh. I really was convinced that he was gross and that he was nothign to me. And hey, it was true. But then this year came and all his friends are gone so I supose he talks to us -- basically A and he tells her stuff that is obviously going to come back to me.
It's like what PA said, "maybe he wants you to be angry at him?"

Thing is, we never see each other anyway, why woud he want me to be angry with him?