a particularly nothing day.
last night i'd fallen asleep in the basement 'cause it's just sooo much cooler there. the lack of light down there makes for a vey decieving setting - i didnt' even know how late it was until i'd up and checked the clock for myself.
i think i officially woke up at around 1:30 - nice, i know. sooo, there it was. half my day comepletely wasted on sleep. and what did i do for the rest of the day? haha. that's funny. i wish i had done SOMETHING.
but it's all good. i think that these past two days were days where i caught up on my sleep.
ever since i got my job and started working practically full-time, i don't think that i was getting my full sleepy-time. and my sleepy-time is a happy-time. does that mean that i've been so cranky becuase of my lack of sleepy-time?
well i'll be - i'm a friggin genius for figuring out my OWN problem. haa. self-inflicted problem. wait -- did that even make any sense? ah well - that doens't matter i suppose.
sleepy time now -- work tomorrow morning at 7.
ARGH.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
the piece of paper read
mindless, mindful
breathless, hopeful
the summer awaits
new things to be seen
the sunlight beckons
a new, rich theme
of discovering self
discovering you -
of paperbag sandwiches
and blue lagoons
breathless, hopeful
the summer awaits
new things to be seen
the sunlight beckons
a new, rich theme
of discovering self
discovering you -
of paperbag sandwiches
and blue lagoons
Monday, August 13, 2007
Looking back ...
on my blogs and all i can do is LAUGH. ahahhaha. laugh laugh laugh.
2005 seemed so friggin long ago, i almost forgot what a little weirdo i was.
2005 seemed so friggin long ago, i almost forgot what a little weirdo i was.
These lyrics bring to mind ...
(8) I've always been a dreamer ... had my head above the clouds ...
I don't know what's wrong with me. Physically, I'm fine. But ... mentally? That's where I think there may be a little something that's not right. Too much of the time -I've got my head up where it shouldn't be. In the clouds. All up in there ... you know, in the dampness and below zero atmospheric whateverness.
I thought that that would all be over once *he* was out of the way. I mean he's very OUT of the way. In fact, he was never even technically in the way to begin with.
I suppose now that summer's coming to a close I'm just freaking out becuase ... everyone's coming back, I'm heading to Uni, and for the first time in my life, I'm terrified of school.
(8) Don't you wish you were dead like me?
Nope. But ... sometimes, I wish i was confined to a hospital bed so that I wouldn't have to deal with life. I mean, it's one of the more shitier things that could cross one's mind, but there it is. Crosses my mind again and again. The thing is, I think that those who get sick like that - well, they have something to live for - something to keep them going. Thus, they fight for their lives.
If I was put there, I'm not too sure I'd fight ...
Interesting eh ...
(8) It's my heart you're stealing, It's my heart you take, It's my heart you're dealing with ... It's my heart you break ...
So like, when someone "takes" your heart - it's just the shittiest thing. 'Cuz you don't got yourself no control over it. That is, it's not up to you who it is that you fall for. It could be the most RANDOM person in the entire UNIVERSE that you fall head over heels for - but you can't do ANYTHING about it. The one thing that is stubborn and thinks it can never be fooled?
Your heart.
I don't know what's wrong with me. Physically, I'm fine. But ... mentally? That's where I think there may be a little something that's not right. Too much of the time -I've got my head up where it shouldn't be. In the clouds. All up in there ... you know, in the dampness and below zero atmospheric whateverness.
I thought that that would all be over once *he* was out of the way. I mean he's very OUT of the way. In fact, he was never even technically in the way to begin with.
I suppose now that summer's coming to a close I'm just freaking out becuase ... everyone's coming back, I'm heading to Uni, and for the first time in my life, I'm terrified of school.
(8) Don't you wish you were dead like me?
Nope. But ... sometimes, I wish i was confined to a hospital bed so that I wouldn't have to deal with life. I mean, it's one of the more shitier things that could cross one's mind, but there it is. Crosses my mind again and again. The thing is, I think that those who get sick like that - well, they have something to live for - something to keep them going. Thus, they fight for their lives.
If I was put there, I'm not too sure I'd fight ...
Interesting eh ...
(8) It's my heart you're stealing, It's my heart you take, It's my heart you're dealing with ... It's my heart you break ...
So like, when someone "takes" your heart - it's just the shittiest thing. 'Cuz you don't got yourself no control over it. That is, it's not up to you who it is that you fall for. It could be the most RANDOM person in the entire UNIVERSE that you fall head over heels for - but you can't do ANYTHING about it. The one thing that is stubborn and thinks it can never be fooled?
Your heart.
