this just in ...

another whole slew of events to report on.





1) on my top 10 ppl to ...


a Kunt by the name of - haha, i'm not telling you her name, BUT she is retarded and she has officially made my top 10 list of people to strangle.





3) dunzo


i had a ten page paper to write and hand in by wednesday. it was hard. i spend a good 12 hours working on it. it was hard. hard to focus anyways. i finished it - and that's what matters.


yippeeeeeee.


bestgal and i celebrated by rediscovering the campus we'd forgotten.





2) signage


so we were walking around campus and decided to go through all the buildings that we'd never been in before. there were a lot and some were seriously very very sketchy. we went through this one building becuase we thought one of our friends (who works there) was working there. it was pretty deserted. no one around. not even a teacher or other students. kinda creepster in a way eh ...
we head out the door and i look to my left with a pang of regret. it's him - wilson. you know, it's not even funny anymore eh, like, seriously. not funny anymore heavens.
whoever is up there is having a blast.
it's so funny i forgot to laugh.

life on repeat

"no need to worry about everything i've done ... live every second like it was my last one ..."

i really ought to start listening. there are signs all around and everything and you know ... i just dont take notice.
sometimes you want a sign really bad. you go through each day and look around you. you take notice of everything that may be a dign. you take notice of things that could mean something - have an underlying meaning ...
but you ignore the stop sign you just walked into.
you shake it off thinking you were distracted, but it never crosses your mind that the stop sign was there for a reason.

"just like a tattoo, i'll always have you ..."

there's this really good quote:
there comes a point in your life
when you realize who matters,
who never did,
who won't anymore,
and who always will.
so don't worry about people from your past -
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

"if you were falling, then i would catch you ..."

just want you to catch me.

hi. my name is funny.

i'm funny. funny funny funny girl.
i do and say things that tickle the funny bone.
give you a little chuckle.
do you know why?
becauuuuuuuuuuuuuse, i'm a girl.

and my girly instincts take over my ability to mentally process things.

can you believe that that sentence took 3 mins to write. and it still doens't really make sense.

so, i'm supposed ...

to be working on my 10 page paper for SOWK. and it's not coming through. i've been distracted for the longest time and i cant get my mind around anything.
i don't really know what to do with myself.
at all.
his name?
i can't say it here. cuz i've been screwed before for mentioning names. and by screwed i mean embarassed like no other.
and like .... ugh.

"you're still a part of everything i do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo..."
so why are you still there. all bothersome. bothering me. in that way you BOTHER ME.
leave me the fuck alone.
i was so TOTALLY fine before. for four years i convinced myself that i did not like you.
and then, BAM, i suddenly fall for you?

for fucks sake.

"if you were falling ... when i would catch you"
no i dont want to catch you anymore. i have my own emotional baggage to worry about.
thanks.


i was so fine.
i was fine.
i am fine.
i'm fine.


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i hate life.




okay no - that's a lie. i dont hate life.


please make it all stop.

for fucks sake.

the player got played.

ugh.

not good.

not good at all.

come one, pull it together.

you're not really upset are you?

do you even want anything to happen?

maybe not.

maybe so ...

but it would have to be long term?

i dont like this at all ....


for fucks sake.