so, i'm supposed ...

to be working on my 10 page paper for SOWK. and it's not coming through. i've been distracted for the longest time and i cant get my mind around anything.
i don't really know what to do with myself.
at all.
his name?
i can't say it here. cuz i've been screwed before for mentioning names. and by screwed i mean embarassed like no other.
and like .... ugh.

"you're still a part of everything i do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo..."
so why are you still there. all bothersome. bothering me. in that way you BOTHER ME.
leave me the fuck alone.
i was so TOTALLY fine before. for four years i convinced myself that i did not like you.
and then, BAM, i suddenly fall for you?

for fucks sake.

"if you were falling ... when i would catch you"
no i dont want to catch you anymore. i have my own emotional baggage to worry about.
thanks.


i was so fine.
i was fine.
i am fine.
i'm fine.


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i hate life.




okay no - that's a lie. i dont hate life.


please make it all stop.