i've become ...

incredibly emo.
haha. no, not actually. but that would be cool ... *serious face*
i don't think i really, fully even understand what it is to be emo.
i think that they're a very misunderstood and already stereotyped group of people.
i mean, they cut themselved and bleed.
sometimes.
a-and, they always wear black and hide their faces.
sometimes.

honestly, why do some people really take them seriously?
i bet you that some "emo" people aren't even recognizable with this new stereotype.
which really scares me and makes sad for them.
so misunderstood.


ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why can't we just float in the sea of love.
Come with meMy loveTo the seaThe sea of loveI want to tell youhow muchI love youDo you rememberWhen we metThat's the dayI knew you were my petI wanna tell youhow muchI love youCome with meMy loveTo the seaThe sea of loveI wanna tell youHow muchI love you.

anyways, so today i booked off of work. to basically give myself a little bit of a vacation from everything. from school, from work (especially). i was supposed to be doing work all day but i didn't end up doing any of it and my sister and i ended up watching awake. it was actually so good and i recommend it to yous all.
whoever it is that's even reading my blog ...

you know, i've always, always wondered that eh. who the fuck reads my blogs? i have no idea. it's so random and i have no friends that do the online blogging thing ... well, i know people who do but they're not exactly you know ... in my fave 5.
and i was thinking that if someone were to be reading my blogs, wow, it's retarded some of the random ass shit i write in here. and i had a really bad experience with it once too, so i had to change names and blogging spaces.
ahahaha.
i embarassed myself real bad to an old crush and it was just bad news town. i'm not going to talk about it.

so what did i do on my day off? well i was supposed to do my work. for this essay that's due next week. but nope ... i didn't end up doing it.
i was also supposed to chill with some friends tonight.
i was out with N the other day and i heard that this guy, M was in town for his reading week. she wants to hook up with him real bad so i was all, okay i'll text him right now and i'll hook you up yo. and so i did and she ended up sending the text while laughin becuase of how random i was.
anyways when he responded we both died because i don't thikn you understand, i dont ever talk to this kid. i went to high school with him and he was in my music classes but i have never really had a real converstaion with him and it's hilarious.
anyways, so ever since that thursday lunch, we've been trying to figure out a way to chill with him ... like make some plans.but that fell through and i'm oh so sad by it.


2AM up in t.dot -- i'm heading out.

ps. you know who i want to meet? ... michael cera.
HAHA