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will we really become like our parents when we get older? i mean the way they act around us while we grow up, well are those actions rubbing off on us without our notice? i have no idea but i hope not. but now that i think of it, its true. i'm becoming more and more like both my mother and father eveyrday and at times i like to blame them for being the way i am. but also for pushing me too hard. i mean theres so much expected of me and no encouragement. they just say, i'll die if you don't do this or that. like WTF?!?! what kind of motivation is that? how is that helping me make better choices or feel like i should be doing the very best i can. more like i feel threatened and yeah, i should do better so i don't get my ass fully whopped. sigh all the wayyyy to town...